• The Easy On Me singer, 33, spoke to Rolling Stone Magazine about her mental health struggles amid her divorce from Simon Konecki which came to light on Good Friday 2019 
• After detailing her mournful time of battling to get out of bed when the world was reacting to her marital breakdown, she spoke of her overhaul saying: ‘Anything that could soothe my anxiety, I threw myself in’ 
• As well as travel, Adele stopped drinking for six months to alleviate ‘hangxiety’ – a term given for the negative feelings to one’s mental health and the anxiety caused by drinking excessively 

Adele has detailed her battles with anxiety and depression, revealing she was left bedbound and struggling with her mental health in the midst of her divorce from Simon Konecki.

The Easy On Me singer, 33, explained that she suffered with both psychological and physical problems that were worsened by the break down of her two-year marriage, noting that a gluten intolerance also contributed to her depression.

Discussing her battle to get out of bed, during which she simply lay watching The Sopranos despite knowing she ‘needed to stay busy’, she told Rolling Stone magazine: ‘Anything that could soothe my anxiety, I threw myself in headfirst. [I travelled] anywhere where there’s meant to be brilliant energy.’

As well as travel, Adele stopped drinking for six months to alleviate ‘hangxiety’ – a term given for the negative feelings to one’s mental health in the wake of drinking.  

Adele’s split from Simon, who she wed in 2011 and with whom she shares son Angelo, nine, came to light on Good Friday 2019 and it was then she began battling her woes. 

She explained that she struggled with the intensity of the reveal and wound up spending increasing time alone due to joint custody – leading to her nights alone without Angelo in the house, watching The Sopranos and dealing with ‘this tsunami of emotions’ that was hitting her.

Adele explained that when she celebrated her 31st birthday in May 2019 with friends, she was feeling positive – yet the next day things hit her harder. 

She said: ‘I remember going upstairs, and doing my face, and getting into bed. I felt quite hopeful. It was the first time I felt I’d had a really nice evening and I was OK being in the house and going to bed on my own…

‘I was not excited, but I was looking forward to the next day.’

It was the next day however that she wound up reclusive in bed, watching The Sopranos instead of keeping busy as she knew she should. 

She went on: ‘I was like, ‘This is going to be really f**king up-and-down” before which she launched her determined drive to overcome her battles.  

‘Anything that could soothe my anxiety, I threw myself in headfirst. I anywhere where there’s meant to be brilliant energy’. 

She revealed she went to Jamaica, Greece, and a desert in Arizona, before also finding out she was allergic to most forms of gluten, which she discovered can cause depression as a side effect to the sensitivity. 

Adele said: ‘So, I was like, ‘Oh, great. Thanks, guys. Could have had a really fun twenties.’

The star has made headlines in recent months for her dramatic body transformation, and did admit in her interview she became ‘addicted to the gym’.

She explained: ‘If I can transform my strength and my body like this, surely I can do it to my emotions and to my brain and to my inner well-being.’

‘That was what drove me. It just coincided with all of the emotional work that I was doing with myself as a visual for it, basically.’

She also shared that when the news of her divorce broke, a close friend flew from London to LA to be by her side and make sure she did not feel alone as the news spread. 

Gracing the cover of Rolling Stone, the singer confessed she had come so far from the person she was before she tied the knot to Simon that she made the difficult decision to walk away from their marriage. 

Adele, who recently went public with her new romance with Rich Paul, added that her single life while living in Los Angeles lasted little more than ‘five seconds,’ after her friends’ failed attempts to set her up on blind dates.

Adele said: ‘I didn’t really know myself.’ I thought I did. I don’t know if it was because my Saturn return or if it was because I was well and truly sort of heading into my thirties, but I just didn’t like who I was. I didn’t really know myself. I thought I did. But I just didn’t like who I was.’

Reflecting on the end of their marriage, she added: ‘It made me really sad. Then having so many people that I don’t know, know that I didn’t make that work… it f*****g devastated me. I was embarrassed. No one made me feel embarrassed, but you feel like you didn’t do a good job.’

The mother-of-one also shared that she was initially ‘bewildered’ by her fans’ response to her divorce, with many expressing excitement over the fact the split would likely inspire a new album.

‘During something like that, that kind of significant thing to happen in life, your mind sort of goes to those places: ”Why don’t they like me? Why would they write that if they’ve followed me for 10 years?”’ Adele said.

She added: ‘But in reality, that’s not their responsibility. In reality, their responsibility as a fan is to want a good record and to hope I deliver. So I took it with a pinch of salt, and it was fine.’ 

Adele also explained her decision to delay the release of her much-anticipated album 30 by more than a year, after penning songs as an emotional reaction to her split from Simon.

She added: ‘If it wasn’t coming out now, I think I probably would never put it out.’

‘I know I would’ve changed my mind and been like, ‘It’s moved on. Let’s start the next album.’ And I couldn’t do that to this album. I feel like it deserves to come out.’ 

Adele has also moved on, embarking on a new romance with American sports agent Rich Paul, at 39 six years her senior and hugely successful in his own right through his representation of numerous prominent NBA players. 

The loved-up couple ‘met on a dance floor at a mutual friend’s birthday party years ago.’

She told Rolling Stone that she was initially reluctant to even tell her friends about her new romance, explaining: ‘I didn’t really tell many of my friends at the beginning because I wanted to keep it to myself.’

A ‘few’ songs on her new album are about her first romantic relationship after her divorce, including All Night Parking – which is ‘an ode to the intoxicating feeling of falling for someone new’. 

However, Adele did not share any further details about the relationship. 

In her interview, Adele also clarified that despite their split, Simon ‘was a great husband’ and ‘is still one of her best friends’. 

But the relationship appears to have caught the singer by surprise, with Adele freely admitting her superstar status made it difficult to find someone who wasn’t instantly intimidated – a subject she explores in new song Oh My God. 

‘I lasted five seconds [dating in Los Angeles],’ she joked, admitting her close friends even attempted to set her up on a blind date. 

‘You can’t set me up on a f**king blind date! I’m like, ‘How’s that going to work?’ There’ll be paparazzi outside and someone will call [gossip site] DeuxMoi, or whatever it’s f**king called! It ain’t happening.’  

Adele has found a new home for herself and son Angelo in Los Angeles, purchasing a Beverly Hills mansion for a reported $9.5million in 2016, a far cry from her humble beginnings in working class Tottenham, north London.

Adele in her own words as she details her depression, love life and strained family relationships 

On her battle with depression: ‘I was like, ‘This is going to be really fucking up-and-down.’ Anything that could soothe my anxiety, I threw myself in headfirst. I travelled anywhere where there’s meant to be brilliant energy’

On her divorce: ‘It made me really sad. Then having so many people that I don’t know, know that I didn’t make that work… it f*****g devastated me. I was embarrassed. No one made me feel embarrassed, but you feel like you didn’t do a good job. I didn’t really know myself. I thought I did. I don’t know if it was because my Saturn return or if it was because I was well and truly sort of heading into my thirties, but I just didn’t like who I was. I didn’t really know myself.’ 

On dating: ‘Everyone is someone or everyone wants to be someone. I’ve been so lucky that no one I’ve been with has ever sold a story on me. I feel like that could really be a possibility. I lasted five seconds dating in Los Angeles. You can’t set me up on a f***ing blind date! I’m like, ‘How’s that going to work?’ There’ll be paparazzi outside and someone will call [gossip site] Deuxmoi, or whatever it’s fucking called! It ain’t happening’

On her famous friends: ‘Jennifer Lawrence and Nicole Richie humanized me because I had avoided talking to anyone that was ever famous in any capacity, because I was like, ‘Well, I’m not famous.’ I’m very British like that. We never spoke about work, which was amazing, because most of the time when I catch up with someone, they want to know all about my work, and I’m like, I don’t want to talk about that.’ 

On her relationship with her late father: ‘I don’t think I understood the deepness of how I felt about him until we spoke. When he died it was like I let out one wail and something left. I’ve felt so calm ever since then. It really did set little me free.’

On her music: ‘If it wasn’t coming out now, I think I probably would never put it out. I know I would’ve changed my mind and been like, ‘It’s moved on. Let’s start the next album.’ And I couldn’t do that to this album. I feel like it deserves to come out.’

She admitted that it wasn’t until 2013 that she truly began to love LA, having previously considered it ‘a ghost town’.

However, when she attended the Oscars that year – and scooped a gong for her Bond song Skyfall – she, Simon and Angelo were renting a house and it was then that Adele ‘fell in love’ with the city.  

The singer has since invested more than $30million into American real estate, and her relocation to the US has inevitably resulted in the development of close friendships with other high profile stars – notably her neighbours, Oscar winner Jennifer Lawrence and TV personality Nicole Richie. 

She explained: ‘They humanized me because I had avoided talking to anyone that was ever famous in any capacity, because I was like, ‘Well, I’m not famous.’ I’m very British like that. 

‘We never spoke about work, which was amazing, because most of the time when I catch up with someone, they want to know all about my work, and I’m like, ”I don’t want to talk about that. Can we talk about something else? I’m knackered.”

The star also confessed that she has her own Finsta – a fake Instagram account – and a fake Twitter account for ‘checking what’s come out about her’.

She quipped: ‘I know how to trace something online, like no one’s business, back to the original source or leak, more than anyone on my team.’ 

With her new album set for release in little more than a week, Adele admits it helped her find closure with her estranged father Mark Evans before his death. 

Evans, who separated from the singer’s mother when she was three years old, passed away aged 57 in May after battling bowel cancer. 

But she admits she resolved her differences with her father after years of feeling unloved, and made sure he was the first person to hear her latest collection of songs. 

‘I don’t think I understood the deepness of how I felt about him until we spoke,’ she said. 

Elsewhere, Adele spoke about how ‘isolating’ her fame can be, explaining she would often choose to skip her friends important events for fear of disrupting them. 

‘I took it to an incredibly isolating level,’ the star said.   

She also spoke about her famous friends Jennifer Lawrence and Nicole Richie, who are also her neighbours in LA.   

Adele said of her celebrity besties: ‘They humanized me because I had avoided talking to anyone that was ever famous in any capacity, because I was like, ‘Well, I’m not famous.’ I’m very British like that.’

The mother of one explained that she and Nicole and Jennifer ‘never spoke about work, which was amazing, because most of the time when I catch up with someone, they want to know all about my work, and I’m like, I don’t want to talk about that.’  

Adding that she tells them: ‘Can we talk about something else? I’m knackered.’ 

Adele has been friends with 31-year-old Jennifer, who is pregnant with her first child, since they met at the Oscars in 2013. 

While anticipation builds around her new music, Adele insists she will not be touring the world as she did for her third album, 25, as a consequence of ongoing COVID restrictions. 

‘It’s too unpredictable, with all the rules and stuff,’ she said. ‘I don’t want anyone coming to my show scared. And I don’t want to get COVID, either.’ 

Last month, Adele confirmed her album’s release date and title alongside a lengthy note in which she explained that she finally felt ready to release her music.

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